give and take

I woke up this morning,even though its hard for me to wake up early morning but i keep trying. yes .i know i'm not a morning person,but i still try my best until i fed up with myself. Every morning i start my day with nothing .i mean nothing , i have no pleasure to go to college. damn damn damn . And now i blame my self like a stupid plain person ,yes I admit it. I have no interest to go to college with all this problem that make me feel worst . a worst feeling ever that i have for the second time .Everyone keep blame on others and no one can be responsible. I sat here and thinking .I have no interest to know what is going on but i have to , because this is my responsible .I'm not that strong as you can see me now. I have to faced this .Everything happen for the reason ,yeah people can say this but what if you put yourself on my shoes.so, could you be a strong like me ? I'm not blaming on anyone, i'm just want us to sit down and take some time to think together and spent time together. Don't blame anyone of us because this is our conjecture to face it together. Don't say that you are too busy too take this part to know what is going on. That is pathetic ,and please don't give a damn . Last night i cant stand it anymore as i could, i crying out loud but still cant give me a better feelings . Please ya Allah , i persuade from you to give this strength to us . at least a little from you .